I have problems parting with some it for several reasons. These are some of the ways I rationalize hoarding all this stuff; I may have another one (probably not but just in case), they wore that on this day and it was so special, Great Grandma so and so gave that to them from the old country, I will never find that again and the minute I part with it I'll need it, it was mine when I was little, the person who gave it to them loves them so much I don't want to hurt their feelings by getting rid of it. All of these reasons and a few more keep my house chalked full of kids crap. It looks like Babys R Us and Toys R Us had a baby and it lives at my house. Now, I did try and part with some( not much) of it last year in our neighborhood garage sale. Of course, I wanted to beat the people over the head with a hammer who had the audacity to try to haggle the already low prices of my children's baby years. Didn't they realize the bargain they were getting ? And how many hours I had labored over the decision to part with any of it? Heartless bastards! But I did it. Now, there are things I refuse to part with because I want to pass down to their children or I will make a part of the quilt that I swear I will make both of them with special baby clothes that I hold the dearest, despite the fact that I have absolutely no idea how to quilt. On these items, my mind is made up.
The annual garage sale is coming up and my MIL has been all up my ass probing to ask : "Have you got all your stuff around?" Me: (in my mind) "NO!! Who said I was parting with one more stitch of my childrens past??? Heartless bitch!!" Then there is my Mom, who I adore , but if she says one more time " WOW! I can't believe all of the stuff your sister is going to get when she has a little girl (implying somehow that I am required to just hand over all of my girls' stuff). Oh yeah, and my sister says the same thing. Might I add, she is not even pregnant nor is she in any stage of getting pregnant..she's just calling dibs!
Seriously, why do they think this? They didn't buy it for me in the first place, what the hell makes them think I am obliged to give it to them? Secondly, who made this rule that just because I have it, I gotta give it to them? It's like they think after I have already invested all the time and money, to make sure everything was just so fro my girls, I should just make it easy on them and hand it all over. I know I sound crazy but this is a sore spot for me. It would be like me walking into my Mom's house and saying, "Wow! When you bite it, I'm gonna be one lucky bitch!" WTF??? Call me crazy, but when the hell did everyone else get the right to tell me when and how to dispose of my babies memories? I may just hold on to all this shit until my girls have their own children. I may have to add a second floor to store it all but that's my prerogative. And I swear to God, if one more person gives me the "WOW! So and so is going to be so lucky to get all your shit", I may just punch them square in their throat! See how easy it is to stake your claim on my stuff then!
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